So here’s the deal. Lately, I’ve been having a bit of a wobble. Those annoying, niggling self-doubts have been creeping into my head, undermining everything I believe in and am working so hard to achieve. These doubts have been making me question my ‘niche’ on the Internet. I’ve been calling myself a health and fitness blogger, but am I really?
I don’t have abs. I once bought a packet of spirulina, had one mouthful and then threw the bag to the back of the cupboard (it was bloody dire). I’ve reverted back to eating a ‘normal’ diet, instead of being gluten/dairy/sugar free. My stupid fringe makes me look like a tit when I’m trying to get a decent workout done. Try as I might, I hate running.
I feel that when I introduce myself as a ‘health and fitness blogger’, people look me up and down, as if to question ‘is she for real?’. I know that this is just in my head (mostly, anyway- I can’t account for the internal thoughts of other people), but it’s a bit crappy all the same.
I’m just a normal girl, trying to better her mind and her body. I’ve banged on loads about my mental health and my plight to lose weight, what’s worked for me and what definitely hasn’t worked for me; but one thing I do know is that my physical fitness is the best it has been in my entire adult life (Christ, I just referred to myself as an adult). Not to sound clichéd, but health and fitness has changed my life, whether that may be for the better or worse. I’m not a naturally slim person, and I’ve worked damn hard to look the way I do, even though I still don’t match up to the goals that I have in my head.
My friend Jess knows that I’ve been having these blogging worries, so she sent me this the other day after finding it amidst her revision for our final exam. ‘The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt’, which I think is something a lot of us could do with listening to (cheers for the advice, Sylv). If you enjoy something, then run with it (unintentional fitness pun, sorry guys). It doesn’t matter what you look like or where you come from, it’s not as simple as fitting into specific categories: if you know your stuff, then what’s stopping you from creating good quality content?
So no, I might not be the athletically-built, abs-of-steel, flicky-haired fitness gal that I constantly see plastered all over the Internet (although I am in no way knocking you people!). I’m a young woman that’s struggled with her weight and the side effects of losing that weight, which I just so happen to be documenting on my blog. I would say that I’m a ‘health and fitness blogger’, just not in the conventional sense. And who wants to be conventional anyway?
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